Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

{MRI results for Faith}

I have contemplated how and when I wanted to make this information public. The news was not ideal, but what we expected, so no surprises. She does have Agenesis of the Corpus Callossum. Basically she is completely missing the connective tissue between her left and right hemispheres. This tissue consists of several nerves that allow the left and right hemispheres to communicate to each other. The movie Rain Man was based on a true story of a man who was completely missing this part of his brain. (He also had another issue that Faith does not.) We believe she will be a high functioning person with this disability, but it is so rare there is not much information out there. We are meeting with a neurologist and an eye specialist. Most children need cataract surgery to keep their eyesight.

On a positive note, our pediatrician was completely surprised by this diagnosis. She seems very normal. I think he expected the results to come back as her being completely fine. This is a very positive sign. Some people go into adulthood not even knowing they have this disability until they have an accident, or need an MRI for other reasons, only then to discover this. So the spectrum is very wide with her outcome.

It is interesting how I have processed this information. Going into her adoption we were told she would need brain surgery. Within a few weeks we had updated information that let us know she didn't need surgery and seemed completely normal. We also knew she had a CT scan in China that diagnosed her with Agenesis of the Corpus Callossum. Since we met her, every single person that also met her confirmed their belief that she seemed normal, and wondered why she was considered special needs.

I guess in the back of my mind I quietly hoped that the CT scan in China was a mistake, that somehow miraculously this perfect little girl slipped through the cracks of the special needs program to make it to us.

Now that we know the diagnosis is valid, I feel such a strong need to protect her. I don't want her labeled. I have even found myself looking at her actions differently, thinking " Is that normal? What is normal? If I am doing it, is anyone else? Will she be under a microscope, others being extra sensitive to her actions, or reactions because they know?" This has been my only real fear of her diagnosis.

Of course we are sad, no one wants their child to struggle or suffer. It would have been nice to hear that she is completely health. Diagnosis or not we just adore her and she is perfect to us. We are excited that she is here with us, and that we can give her the best chance for a normal life that treatment can offer. We are prepared and happy and blessed that she is a part of our lives.



Thanks for your continued support, we love our support system and are grateful for you all.

Love,
Dawn


The Corpus Callosum is a bundle of nerves in the brain that connects and sends messages between the two sides of the brain. "Corpus" means a body or structure while "callosum" means a bridge. "Agenesis" means without development.

The above picture shows the Corpus Callossum. In the picture on the upper left the Corpus Callossum is completely missing, ( this is Faith's diagnosis) The upper right has a partial. The lower left is a normal MRI, and the lower right is a thin Corpus Callossum.

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  2. So sorry to hear about Faith's diagnosis. She is so blessed to have a forever family that will take good care of her! Hang in there!

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  3. I just wanted to say congratulations on your daughter! I didn't have a chance to check back in with your blog since your adoption.

    My biological son is on the autism spectrum. He was diagnosed with PDD-NOS - which basically means that he has characteristics / symptoms of those on the autism spectrum (Asperger's) but does not have enough of the symptoms to classify as Asperger's.

    To most people he appears perfectly "normal" ... you would never know (in some ways) that he struggles. Those who know him well (and his physicians) can see the social struggles, etc. but -now that he is ten- he has had so much therapy and has learned so many coping skills that he is perfectly typical in many of his interactions.

    The one part of your post I noticed the most was your need to protect your daughter. And I remember that sad / overwhelming feeling when Liam was a little one. I think the hardest part is just not knowing all the struggles our child might face as they get older b/c you want to prepare ahead of time to make things easier for him. I remember that well.

    But you know you are perfectly prepared!! :) I wish you only the best as you navigate through all the different options and programs for Faith. What an amazing life she is going to lead!!

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  4. I am so glad that you adopted this precious child, and that she can get medical treatment here. I have three SN kids (2 bio, 1 adopted) and you would never know. They are as ordinary as any other. Prayers for all of you for more good information to come your way.

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  5. Faith seems to be a strong little girl and will go far in this life. God placed her in your family for a reason, where she will be given so much love and support. I know with God on your side all things are possible. He never promises that the journey will be easy but he'll certainly walk right beside you.

    Keep the faith! Lifting you up in prayer.

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  6. Thank you for sharing the diagnosis. I really wanted to know what the results were. I can understand your torn feelings about what to share. We also have had surprises as well as diagnoses confirmed with our SN kids...and it is always tricky to know what to share publicly and what is private. With Kai, our agency forbade us to share anything...which at first I obeyed, but with time I have felt it can help other adoptive families to share some of his story.

    I believe that there are no coincidences in this life. I know that Faith is meant to be with you and that your family is the best place for her to grown, learn, and feel safe. Even her Chinese name means to think, which is a process of the brain. I believe that you can provide the best advantage for her in this life. Not only for her brain, but also for her to feel love and safety- and most importantly to have a family.

    Love
    Kim

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  7. Dawn- Thank you for posting about Faith. She has been in our thoughts and prayers. While now you have a concrete diagnosis, all signs point to a happy and healthy little girl. She will receive everything she needs, and she was meant to be in your lives as your daughter. Most people say our children are so blessed to have us, but I believe we are blessed to have them. Enjoy her. I am hoping to travel next month for Anna and we will be right behind you in the MRI to see what her diagnosis is also.
    Jen

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  8. We all know that diagnoses mean nothing to our Father! With Him Faith is a beautiful, strong little girl. Enjoy the blessing!

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  9. Oh my goodness. I first want to send you my {{{hugs}}} and prayers for your whole family. Faith seems to be such a strong little girl who is defying the odds. I will pray that she will remain on this path and will lead a "normal" life. I can only imagine what you are going through right now as a family. But, you will make it through, despite the difficulty.

    With you in her life, she will receive the medical care she needs to thrive and succeed. She has a family who loves her so much, and that love will help her every day. You are all so lucky to have each other. {{{Hugs}}}

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  10. Hi Dawn,

    My thoughts are with you and little Faith. She is such a beautiful girl with the most precious smile. Although the road ahead may seem frightening because of the unknowns I'm sure that it will be brighter because you have each other.

    Thinking and praying for your family!

    Jennie

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  11. Dawn ~

    Faith is BEAUTIFUL and the perfect daughter that God has chosen for your family:) Jordan our middle son had many diagnosis labels when he was younger and he has over come all of them!! Is he still partially blind in one eye, yes he is and he is also the starting point gaurd on our high school basketball team and is fullfilling every dream and ambition he has!! I have 100% faith that Faith will do everything she desires to do and everything that God has called her to do!! Praying for you all!!!

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  12. Thank you so very much for choosing to post this very sensitive, private information about your daughter.

    I know EXACTLY how you feel, as my daughter was diagnosed in China with EXACTLY the same thing.

    I just found your blog & was reading back thru your archives. When I came across this post, I stopped dead in my tracks. I have NEVER found another person who has adopted a child with this diagnosis.

    I, too, have found limited information on the internet, and what I have found hasn't seemed to pertain to her (my daughter) at all. We have yet to have an MRI done here in the US, but have one scheduled for January.

    I struggle with the same thoughts as you. My older kids are 13 & 11, so I don't remember everything they should/were doing at 2 1/2. I am continually asking myself "is this normal", "should she be doing this or that", etc. I haven't told anyone her official diagnosis (even my family) as I don't want her labeled and treated different.

    Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! for posting. Please feel free to contact me if you'd like to talk more about how/what my daughter is doing or whatever. It's nice to have someone who knows how you feel....
    silverscoop.blogspot.com
    bsilvers@embarqmail.com

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