New ~ OLD~ Pictures

Before we had Faith home, pictures were a treasure, something that connected us to her in a desperate way to somehow know her. Today after having her home for three months and loving her like we do, these pictures are a painful reminder of the time she was not ours. They remind me of her beginning, her abandonment,and her poor health and suffering. I actually don't like them. Is that wrong? These were found by the volunteer in her orphanage after cleaning out some files. I have a hard time looking at them and briefly did when they showed up in my inbox a few months ago. I almost forgot about them...until today. Today I ran across them and decided I should post them. She is my baby, the baby I never knew. Who is holding my baby anyway? I know that look in her two month old pictures...she doesn't feel well, I can tell. Did she have a tummy ache, need a diaper change, or perhaps she was hungry? Did she have an ear infection? I will never know. I do know she is a survivor, a strong little soul who defied her circumstances to not only survive...but thrive. I am so grateful for the volunteers who cared for her, and loved her when I could not. You can tell between her two month photos and her 8 month photo that she grew healthy. Looking at the later photo gives me some comfort.

~Faith at 2 months old~



~Faith at 8 months old~